| Dec. 20th, 2009 @ 12:36 am (no subject) |
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A bit over a week ago i started a new job (last i worked was for that wholesale nursery, 2 years ago), at a company that contracts with Dell Computers to supply/upgrade/maintain businesses/corporations with computers. My uniform is now a polyester polo shirt that says "Dell Services", heh.
I notice i was really happy in my last journal entry, also i was all hyperactive when IM chatting with people online. I wish i knew wtf caused that. I was exercising a lot, but i still am, and I'd broken my arm but took it all in my stride. I remember still being quite happy even by the time i got my arm outof the cast weeks later. But i havn't rollerbladed much since then (after the arm break i'm subconsciously scared of them). Maybe it was just the buzz of getting the new car, that wore off after a few months?
Anyway that was 6 months ago. Now i'm working (fulltime too, argh) and i'm not really sure howto take it. I'm currently exposing myself to as much web articles/discussion and movies dealing with the topic of criticism and refusal of work and work/life balance etc as i can.
I'd like to work part time, but this company seems to be training me up to be mostly on the road dealing with clients, and i don't think that's the kindof thing they'd be happy with me doing that part time.
Oh, i've also been prompted to read up on the T/F difference with MBTI, or since the MBTI has fallen outof favour with me i'm instead reading about the "Agreeableness" factor of the Big 5 personality profile. Why? Because in this workplace i've been struck with how much i dislike the other men, and i'm eager to find some kindof psychological insight into the situation that will make these people more predictable.
These competitive, impatient, stressful people are rather alienating to me.
On the other hand this job is in my chosen field of expertise (InfoTech) and it is thus valuable experience i'll perhaps be thankful for in the future. But right now i feel too pressured to enjoy life, or improve my grasp of the enjoyment i'm lead to believe it holds.
When i was offered this job, i was seriously contemplating bringing my sole-operator I.T. business back up and running, and make a serious go of it. I was just starting to re-educate myself to get back upto speed, when this new job came up and i naturally accepted.
Now what i'd ultimately like is to continue working in this new job perhaps 2 days a week, and try to get my self employed I.T. stuff back up and running. Advertise locally, take call-out work fixing people's PCs at their homes, etc. Reap the financial rewards of being my own boss, and work at my own pace.
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Oh, and here's a Big 5 personality profile i just did. I was surprised to come out as "Conscientious" (MBTI equvalent of a J). In the MBTI i normally test as INFP, so i thought i'd come out as "Free Spirited" in the Big 5, but no. Maybe it's not quite as similar to MBTI as i thought.
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scratch that, the website's embed code doesn't work.
My type is.
Unfortunately i can't embed the full visual illustration, and i'm not even sure if this link will work. So i'll see if i can copy-paste some of it behind a LJ cut.
http://www.signalpatterns.com/profile/show/311176
Conscientious (not Free Spirited)
Emotional (not Stable)
Open (not Traditional)
Agreeable (not Independant)
Reserved (not Extroverted)
( Read more... )
I'm not sure the picture in this embedded thingy is accurate (it seems to be saying now that i'm "Free-Spirited" instead of "Contientious", perhaps it's a generic image. |
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