| Oct. 26th, 2006 @ 04:54 pm Nasty-Auntie-Beccy |
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Wow, i havn't seen her in ages...
Ok, my dad's little brother Craig married Rebecca a year before i was born. Rebecca didn't really like kids much, the family had nicknamed her Nasty-Aunty-Beccy in fun coz there was no avoiding us kids (i have a lot of cousins). She's wild, a champagne entertainer, very extroverted and sharp as a tack, sheek, shopaholic and fashionista, an ENFP.
Only a few years before my family moved to Brisbane - when i was 11 or so my Dad's little brother Craig had an affair, he and Rebecca divorced. As JWs this is really serious stuff, it's one of the only excuses JWs can use for divorce - divorce is so rare. Anyway, people tried to keep us kids away from the whole deal, which was weird coz Craig & Beccy were my favourite uncle & aunt - they were also the only ones that didn't have kids of their own.
So, my favourite uncle & aunt kinda disappeared, they moved away to get on with their lives and i never saw them again. Only rarely overhearing phone conversations about Craig's future fuckups as he continued to break heart after heart, hah he seems to have finally settled down now though. I havn't seen either of them since i was 11.
But last week Beccy flew across here for a friend's wedding, and she was able to stay with us for 24hours or so. It was weird for her as i was 11yo when she last saw me. And i'd never had to handle her as an adult either. She's just the same as i remember her, she talked non stop the 2 hour drive home, sitting next to her was my usual overstimulated self.
She's sharp, which is rare in my family. She's a little into psychology and was able to tell me she's an ENFP (which would make her the FIRST person i've met who's ever even heard about it). She's dangerously honest, and it came to me that when we moved here - the place she left empty was filled by Joanne here, who quickly became a good family friend. Joanne has that extroverted brutal honesty, no pretension, no 2 faces. Beccy is the same.
Even though she is a JW she makes jokes about JW taboos. She's sharp enough to get away with it.
i know i'll miss her, i wish she never left my family life, she could be my mentor in the family.
I never told her i wasn't a JW anymore.
while she was here, it became obvious to me that i can't be myself when i'm around my family here. I was quiet and didn't talk much, because i can't say anything honest without my family's disapproval. The problem is that my family is always there, i can never be alone with anyone. She's really talkative, and nothing shocks her, i had a lot i would have loved to talk to her about but i could have never said any of it with my immediate family around. And really, what possible reason do i ever have to be alone with anyone? I'm always in situations where i can't be honest with people.
swim swim swim, Gaaaaaaaaaasp
Her sharp honesty is a breath of fresh air.
uncle Craig as well, because he was kindof the black sheep of the family i felt a kindof resonance with him. But he's in adelade now and i havn't heard from him in so long. I'd like to talk about his whole breakup with Rebecca, as a kid it was a taboo to ask about. I'd like to ask him not only about that, but about it ALL, about life in general, his thoughts on male promiscuousness. It's difficult to imagine the scene of awkard-silence it would cause for such things to be discussed amongst my family and ex-friends - ooooh boy.
So, i think of him like a lifeline.
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Religion is denial, denial of the frustration & futility of life. But she seems to not be in denial of life's futility.
I'm pessimistic about the future, about goals. I don't know if this is depression or just honesty. |
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